Now

Wednesday, September 28

I wrote this blog before. Or one like it. And I’ll write it again, surely.

This morning as I finished coffee I thought ahead to 3:30 PM when I’d heave a sigh settle into my chair in the den and enjoy NOW.  Until then I had to feed the birds and fish, take Joy to work, stop in at Love’s H/AC, buy bug traps at Ace, plant nine pots of gallardia in Benny’s flower garden, clean the car, return a book to the library, file receipts and return downtown for Joy.

Then, long about 10:30 as I was filling a bucket of new compost for use in planting the gallardias, “it dawned on me” that NOW was not yet at 3:30 but right there in the very moment I was in. I paused to sense NOW, to allow myself to enter it.

Instantly I slowed down in walking to and fro my errands. I looked more closely at the near environment and listened to it. As I loaded the pots into the trunk of the car, I sensed I wasn’t anticipating 3:30 PM but rather occupying 10:30 AM. The day stopped being busy; each moment had its own NOW. It was a good day.

Not surprising, 3:30 PM came and went. The clock says 9:57 but I know that it is NOW.